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The feeling of death!

Let's start with recalling a beautiful song from 'The Beatles',

There are places i'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more

Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more



I don't know how I got to hear Beatles, but It's wonderful to be able to listen this beautiful song, I am not a very big fan of non-indian music and rock music, but I love Beatles. Just this song had made me their fan. I am yet to discover more songs of beatles, but of the few songs I've heard the, let it be, you got to hide your love, hey jude, all are wonderful. Thank you Beatles once again for making a person like me who loved only old Indian songs and ghazals, love rock music. For me its a great fusion of Rock and Indian music inside me. Anything that is good, I will appreciate.

Moving off the topic, I am feeling not very good today, a very strange feeling inside, feeling like guilty of something, I don't know why? Is it possible to hurt somebody without even touching him? Yes it is, and I think that is more painful than hitting. And if the person who is hitting you is you yourself than? Ah! This can be the most painful situation. Yesterday I got a thought of the way I get killed by somebody with the most dreadful way, like somebody is peeling my skin, and then putting me into some boiling chemical and hanging me with neck, and I am not shouting, not dead, looking! Feeling like I deserve much more than that! Hell! I think I am getting mysterious. And today I am feeling pain in my whole body. I think I need to solve this thing, to do or to die. Why the hell I am giving pain to somebody who don't even know about it. It's tough to understand what I've written, I know, I can't write directly to the point, I am helpless. I think things will be normal soon, but I really need to solve them.

ps. you had better not read the above paragrah!

Lets make the enviornment normal again, read these lines from Madhushala,

अधरों पर हो कोई भी रस,
जिव्हा पर लगती हाला,
भाजन हो कोई हाथों में,
लगता रखा है प्याला।
हर सूरत साकी की सूरत में
परिवर्तित हो जाती है,
आंखों के आगे हो कुछ भी,
आंखों में है मधुशाला!

If anybody really got what is written over here please do react! It will be interseting to know!
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Anonymous said…
We always try to look for easy path n see whatever we want to see. Alcohol is the best medium for moving away from the reality as it really provides a hole right in the middle of the reality for skipping out, that's why we always look for that hole (ALCOHOL) { आंखों के आगे हो कुछ भी,
आंखों में है मधुशाला! } :)
January 27, 2009 at 8:06 PM
skbohra said…
Nice to hear your opinion. But I believe that the poet is talking about his lover, he is saying everywhere it is she! There is no point to see ALCOHOL coming in between. :)
January 28, 2009 at 4:25 PM
Anonymous said…
whatever you may call it its your perspective, i m simply talking about a hole way to skip out from reality and from my perspective love is also an illusion a beautiful illusion, that is everywhere and everyone see to it but with a difference. The only thing that remains the same from any angle is reality (the whole truth and nothing but a truth) :)
January 28, 2009 at 9:30 PM
skbohra said…
What is reality? Does anything of this sort exists? Nothing is real man! Some illusions are accepted by a bigger mass so they become reality and some are lesser accepted so they are still called illusion. And when illusion is giving us pleasure and reality is troubling in than why not be in illusion, love as you said is a beautiful illusion, true! and I wish that everybody remains in this illusion!

Its great to hear back from you, thanks! :)
January 30, 2009 at 7:00 AM
Anonymous said…
Ok sir, now time to end the debate but one thing that i wanna ask you {if u really don't mind :) }, the love u are talking about is a female love or simply love as osho said {love n love but never get involved in an affair because it limits your boundary from doing love}.
February 10, 2009 at 6:46 PM
skbohra said…
does that really matter! love is love! I am not being able to distinguish between the two sort of loves you are talking about, you can take it any way!

It will be great if I could know your name! thanks for commenting!
February 17, 2009 at 9:20 AM
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