Fighters

After around one year, I am writing a blog post sitting in college computer lab! It reminds me of days when I used to sit iin college computer labs for hours. Those were the days when I was in first year and I didn't have internet access at hostel room. The spirit was amazingly high during those days. I remember going back to college when others where sleeping in room, during hot winds summer time. I used to surf random things, anything that comes my way and keep digging! Now the scene has changed a little, instead of college computer lab I have internet at my room, and nothing else has change :) just getting a little bit nostalgic. WOW college computer labs are of some use, still. And we have Red hat installed wow wow! though the internet speed is just above being pity! everything else is fine! WOW!! Bye for now, its lecture time! ;) Bunking is on the cards though!

मेरी टीचर मेनू कहन्दी है आंदा नही मेनू कुछ भी पापा मेनू कहंदे है तू मेरा नाम दुबायेगा ,मेरी अम्मा मेनू कहेंदी है एक सोनी कुडी मेनू मिलेगी मेरे यार कहेंदे है तू मुंडा कमाल है। मेरे पहले टेस्ट की तेयारी की मैंने ऐसे सारे सुब्जेक्ट्स के नाम मेनू अब है याद। अचानक आया मुझे ये ख्याल छोडू ये सब बातें, सुनो ये कहानी नई रात को जब में हॉस्टल की छत पर बैठा था, देख रहा था मैं कॉलेज को पता नही क्यूँ आँख मैं मेरे आँसू आ गए , मैंने देखा ख़ुद को रोते मुझे लगा कुछ अलग सा I love my college very much दिन भर कॉलेज मैं फिरता हूँ शाम होती है तो सोचता हूँ शाम क्यूँ हुई अब मैं सोचता हूँ उन दिनों के बारें में, सब कुछ इतना जल्दी जल्दी हो रहा है की क्या बताऊँ जैसे कल की हो ये बात अब तो रोंदा हूँ मैं पर पता नही क्यूँ , न समझेगी वो, न समझूंगा मैं कभी, इधर भी वो उधर भी वो every where it is she! मेरे जानने से या न जानने से क्या होगा, जानता हूँ मैं पर वो नही जानती, इतने दिंनों से पता नही क्या कहूं पर जब भी देखता हूँ तुझे लगता है जैसे धड़कन रुक सी गई, जानता हूँ मैं बर्बाद हूँ इंसान, पर पता नही क्यूँ सोचता हूँ मैं ऐस...

Four years have passed like four days. I still remember the first day of college. I was very scared of ragging and seniors. Though I was convinced that I will handle all that, but even then I had a little fear with lots of joy. And I met a senior just few minutes after I entered the college. The devil was looking at me, I tried to avoid him, gathered courage and tried to pass him, but had to stop. I looked at him, he looked at me. I was not aware of some eye culture here. The next half an hour I was with among four others of my class, one girl and three of us and the senior, he seemed to be a music lover, he wanted us to sing song for him. I knew if I sing something will happen. I sang so loudly that teachers from classes by side came there and scolded that senior. That was the first day of college and today is the last day of college. I had nothing with me on that day and today I am an engineer, with lots of dreams, lots of ideas and of course an engineering degree and a joining lett...

I spent many nights in college computer lab alone, only me in computer lab at night. From 12:30 pm in day to 8:30 am in morning of next day. I have been in lab many times like this. The toughest part of this is when everbody else in lab leaves at 5:00 pm in evening and ask if I too want to leave. when I realize of that question and want to answer that I looked at watch and its 12:30 am, it took me 7 hours to answer that question and felt like just one minute. For few seconds I felt hungry, but at this time in area where my college is I can't dream of anything to eat, the other moment, I was again in computer. I looked back at watch, its 2:10 am, time flies. I realize this. But I wonder I didn't feel sleepy at all. Its 2:10 am in morning, its strange. At 7:30 am in morning Guard sahab of computer lab came. He looked at me, asked me why I've came so early. I said I was here from yesterday morning.

Today I happen to read my past diaries which i wrote before my college life and i find that i have not written much about my college days. So this is going to be the starting point for that, so the situation is that i am in second year of my four year engineering course, its a great feeling to see yourself doing something you always wanted, life is totally different from earlier, these days i am thinking about world :-) really I want to change something in this world or to do something very much visible :O oh! Being a little bit ambitious ya this is the change Oh! I am a little bit open now, can express myself more easily, now thats really a huge advancement i still remember myself and can see that it is a nice change. One more thing someone came in my life, :-) oh! Its a joke, actually i am trying to get anybody in my life! ;) oh i am really loving these smileys oh! One more thing i am now thinking about future ha! Ha! Ha! Ya i am serious, i am hoping to do something for my future oh...