Where to start! Its been a long journey started sometime back in first year of my engineering, three years back. The journey of this blog is very much similar to what my life has been in these years. If someone goes through all posts he will realize that the posts on this blog vary much on topics, sometimes I wrote about dreams, sometimes about love, sometimes about technology, sometimes about relationships and many more, I wrote a couple of short stories, I wrote many incidents of my life during these days of engineering. I think i had never been so expressive as I had been here. I never talked much about topics I wrote here, its been wonderful, simply it helped me in my real life as well. I wrote many poems here, posted about various things happened with me. The blog has changed my image of being a very un -expressive guy to a highly thinking guy, nobody had thought that I can write on topics like girls, relationships, love but I wrote about them here! and this helped me show different colour of my personality . Many of my friends asked me if what I wrote here is true? I know what they mean by that! When I write about love, relationships it is obvious for people to think about the source of inspiration for this!
Lets make it little clearer, what I am going to write in this last post? I am going to write down about my life's unshared moments, my unshared dreams, my source of inspiration, my vices, my bad habits, why I am leaving this blog? and what I have planned for future?
Why I decided to halt this blog? The decision came in a flash of moment. I was about to write a blog post today suddenly I realize that I am not enjoying writing here, since the blog has been evolved as a blog mainly related to love and relationships, I thought the purpose of this blog is now complete. I don't think I need to write here any more. Now I will write about love and relationship only when I will experience it, only when I will live it. Till then no more writing about it. I consider this blog as one dedicated to love!
I have evolved so much internally as a human since I started this blog. There is one more reason why I am leaving this blog, I take this decision as an indication of change in my life, this signals I am into a change. Lets just make this change, I said to myself a couple of days back, I didn't know where to start from, I started choosing by leaving my most loved thing this blog. This is a small sacrifice for the sake of a bigchange. I think the starting of blog was a change and stopping of this blog is also a change.
एक और बार और आखिरी बार,
लिख रहा हूँ वह जो लिखता रहा बार बार
शायद इस बार लिख दूँ वह जो नहीं लिखा
एक भी बार। सोच रहा था मैं परिवर्तन के बारें
में, परिवर्तन तो संसार का सत्य है, मुझमे
जो परिवर्तन हो, वो ऐसा हो की फिर पहले
जैसा कुछ भी न रहे। एक बार हो परिवर्तन,
न हो फिर कभी। कहते है लोग इश्क में
करते है सब त्याग, मैं तो कर रहा हूँ इश्क का ही त्याग।
हाय! शायद ये भी कुछ काम आ जाए।
I watched a movie Lakshya many times just to see a scene, in which Hero and Heroine met again after a very long time, the situation was that hero and heroine broke up over something that hurt hero so much that it changed his life, they were sitting on a bench, after a long silence Heroine told Hero that " बदल गए हो तुम " Hero said " और तुम, तुम नहीं बदली क्या? " I just love this scene.
This is all about change.
I am about to share unshared moments of my life। My childhood, I spend my childhood mainly busy in doing things related to what "bade log" say pagalpan, infact my problem was that I get excited too much with things, I always wanted to try new things. We, my, my brothers, sisters, cousins used to spend our summer vacation at our farm house, those days were really great. We discovered so many things during that period. The two months summer vacation every year was a boon to me. When I remember those days now I think that I was also a child. " उस समय तो ऐसा लगता था जैसे हम कुछ भी कर सकते है" We used to try new things everyday. Few things are like going to pond learning to make sand toys from village children, playing old traditional games like "चक्कर ताडी", we had a very big tyre of tractor once we decided to get into it and roll it the one who goes farthest become winner, making woodden toys, once we decided to make house on tree, we tried really hard to make it one as in "Chip n Tale", and once we decided to make a rope sliding as of Tarzan. These are the very few things we did in our summer vacations.
I remember once we decided to start a museum, we and my brother Vivek. We were so passionate about doing experiments. Though most of them ended up with failures ;)
Do you know why I am writing it here, because I want to make a point that earlier we used to take risks but as we grew older we try to fit in this world, and to fit into it we need to shape ourself as the world want, exactly the dimensions the world want, and thus we loose all our innocence, there is an old song ......
बच्चे मन के सच्चे
सारी जग की आँख के
तारे ये वो नन्हे फूल है जो
भगवान् को लगते प्यारे।
बच्चे जब तक छोटे है
तब तक समझो सच्चे है,
ज्यों ज्यों उनकी उमर बढे
जूठ और पाप का मैल चढ़े।
The only thing I need to do is to make sure I give such a time to my childs, if I have them.
Future plans : a dialogue by Abhishek Bacchan in movie "GURU"
"पाँच साल में बड़ा आदमी बनने वाला हूँ "
My next blog will be one based on technology.
My source of inspiration about love and relationship " Movies of Yash Raj" :P
Just joking. I know if I write that there is no body than that will be a lie, and if I write some name that will be unfair. To make it square i will write I do have a source of inspiration around me. Which had made me write and take life as a different way. I can't resist my self from writing a ghazal sung by ghulam ali here, which goes like this:
फासले ऐसे भी होंगे ये कभी सोचा न था
सामने बैठा था वो मेरे और वो मेरा न था।
हो के खुशबु की तरह फैला था वो मेरे चारसू
मैं उसे महशूस कर सकता था छु सकता न था
फासले ऐसे भी होंगे ये कभी सोचा न था।
रात भर पिछली ही आहात कान मैं आती रही,
झाँक कर देखा गली मैं कोई भी आया न था।
I am feeling same as Saurav Ganguly may be feeling while playing his last test match, so many emotions coming all together, I am sure Ganguly must me crying in dressing room. even I felt my eyes wet for him. This is my last post here, I got many good comments for my earlier posts. Thanks everybody who read my posts and invested there time reading it. I always searched the blog similar to this one, but couldn't find one, so decided to make it myself and I am proud that I made it the way I wanted. Now I have something else in my mind which I will make. As I didn't find anything of that sort, to end up my journey I write a line from one of my earlier posts "मेरी फ़िल्म का तो मैं ही हीरो हूँ" and I wish the same for all! Ameen!
Lets make it little clearer, what I am going to write in this last post? I am going to write down about my life's unshared moments, my unshared dreams, my source of inspiration, my vices, my bad habits, why I am leaving this blog? and what I have planned for future?Why I decided to halt this blog? The decision came in a flash of moment. I was about to write a blog post today suddenly I realize that I am not enjoying writing here, since the blog has been evolved as a blog mainly related to love and relationships, I thought the purpose of this blog is now complete. I don't think I need to write here any more. Now I will write about love and relationship only when I will experience it, only when I will live it. Till then no more writing about it. I consider this blog as one dedicated to love!
I have evolved so much internally as a human since I started this blog. There is one more reason why I am leaving this blog, I take this decision as an indication of change in my life, this signals I am into a change. Lets just make this change, I said to myself a couple of days back, I didn't know where to start from, I started choosing by leaving my most loved thing this blog. This is a small sacrifice for the sake of a bigchange. I think the starting of blog was a change and stopping of this blog is also a change.लिख रहा हूँ वह जो लिखता रहा बार बार
शायद इस बार लिख दूँ वह जो नहीं लिखा
एक भी बार। सोच रहा था मैं परिवर्तन के बारें
में, परिवर्तन तो संसार का सत्य है, मुझमे
जो परिवर्तन हो, वो ऐसा हो की फिर पहले
जैसा कुछ भी न रहे। एक बार हो परिवर्तन,
न हो फिर कभी। कहते है लोग इश्क में
करते है सब त्याग, मैं तो कर रहा हूँ इश्क का ही त्याग।
हाय! शायद ये भी कुछ काम आ जाए।
I watched a movie Lakshya many times just to see a scene, in which Hero and Heroine met again after a very long time, the situation was that hero and heroine broke up over something that hurt hero so much that it changed his life, they were sitting on a bench, after a long silence Heroine told Hero that " बदल गए हो तुम " Hero said " और तुम, तुम नहीं बदली क्या? " I just love this scene.
This is all about change.
I am about to share unshared moments of my life। My childhood, I spend my childhood mainly busy in doing things related to what "bade log" say pagalpan, infact my problem was that I get excited too much with things, I always wanted to try new things. We, my, my brothers, sisters, cousins used to spend our summer vacation at our farm house, those days were really great. We discovered so many things during that period. The two months summer vacation every year was a boon to me. When I remember those days now I think that I was also a child. " उस समय तो ऐसा लगता था जैसे हम कुछ भी कर सकते है" We used to try new things everyday. Few things are like going to pond learning to make sand toys from village children, playing old traditional games like "चक्कर ताडी", we had a very big tyre of tractor once we decided to get into it and roll it the one who goes farthest become winner, making woodden toys, once we decided to make house on tree, we tried really hard to make it one as in "Chip n Tale", and once we decided to make a rope sliding as of Tarzan. These are the very few things we did in our summer vacations.
I remember once we decided to start a museum, we and my brother Vivek. We were so passionate about doing experiments. Though most of them ended up with failures ;)
Do you know why I am writing it here, because I want to make a point that earlier we used to take risks but as we grew older we try to fit in this world, and to fit into it we need to shape ourself as the world want, exactly the dimensions the world want, and thus we loose all our innocence, there is an old song ......
बच्चे मन के सच्चे
सारी जग की आँख के
तारे ये वो नन्हे फूल है जो
भगवान् को लगते प्यारे।
बच्चे जब तक छोटे है
तब तक समझो सच्चे है,
ज्यों ज्यों उनकी उमर बढे
जूठ और पाप का मैल चढ़े।
The only thing I need to do is to make sure I give such a time to my childs, if I have them.
Future plans : a dialogue by Abhishek Bacchan in movie "GURU"
"पाँच साल में बड़ा आदमी बनने वाला हूँ "
My next blog will be one based on technology.
My source of inspiration about love and relationship " Movies of Yash Raj" :P
Just joking. I know if I write that there is no body than that will be a lie, and if I write some name that will be unfair. To make it square i will write I do have a source of inspiration around me. Which had made me write and take life as a different way. I can't resist my self from writing a ghazal sung by ghulam ali here, which goes like this:
फासले ऐसे भी होंगे ये कभी सोचा न था
सामने बैठा था वो मेरे और वो मेरा न था।
हो के खुशबु की तरह फैला था वो मेरे चारसू
मैं उसे महशूस कर सकता था छु सकता न था
फासले ऐसे भी होंगे ये कभी सोचा न था।
रात भर पिछली ही आहात कान मैं आती रही,
झाँक कर देखा गली मैं कोई भी आया न था।
Resting!!!
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