मेरी फिल्म का तो मैं ही हीरो हूँ

time is time, it changes so quickly and along with it, it changes so many things that i am wondering i was quite different person from what i was a few days ago, i am today in a mood to explore things around me in a very different way, may be very much indirect way, today while sitting in my hostel room, i am thinking about future that how it will be, i recalled one thing my nanaji says that even if you can't do several things you want to do right now, but don't give up thinking about that, and when you keep thinking about something to happen it really happens may be a little bit late than you wanted, but the time is right when it happens, so keep thinking! this is what i am doing, many people think that i am not affected my surroundings but the fact is that i am affected by surroundings as no body else, i am attached to few people very much, i keep thinking about them all the time, may be they don't realize this but i am this, i am that, i am much more than what you think about me, and as you explore me more you will learn more about me, but whats the need of exploring me, because you will find it interesting , i was reading an interview of a highest paid writer, who is an Indian born American, and he said the same thing that 9 years earlier he thought of becoming the highest paid writer after reading interview of then highest paid writer, this is the power of thinking! so keep thinking. there are so many things i want to write here, like what i will do if i didn't get succeed in life, i really always think like that, what if i get failed in my life , and i don't know why but i think there is a great possibility of me getting failed in my life venture! i think i think a little differently from what people around me think like, I am living in hostel , and i want to describe a situation of my hostel that how boys live like, Scene 1: its 12.30 pm and i am in mess, on entering in mess i found around 50-55 boys standing near the platform from where we get roti , and they are behaving like its a flood relief camp, and what if they don't get roti, so getting roti is like a task that you can proud of!! again now how they serve food in mess, like they are making rotis and as they make one , they throw it over to a plate, where nearby you have 'ghee' you have a bowl, from which you can paste butter oil if you wish! and you are done you have successfully completed task of fetching two rotis, now how to have those rotis from one vegetable that we call 'UEO' : unidentified eating objects' you may never know what you are eating! but still you are happy that you are getting food, and also there is curd which is boiling at 40C, i don't know how i am having that curd, while at home i could never even look at it! and its not a community hostel! we have paid 29,000 Rs. for this , here i have made the point, things are bad and we make them worse, i sometimes think that why people live life as they are living somebody else's life! its your life yaar come on i tell one thing about me 'मेरी फिल्म का तो मैं ही हीरो हूँ' so why do i spoil my life an d then blame others for spoiling it! thats simply a thing to laugh if you can't cry !