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I am hurt!


Things are not as simple as they look from outside, and we make them even more complicated. I always believe in not letting anyone feel low because of me, and I really mean that. Even if the person is in a completely wrong thing I try not to feel him embarrass, this is me. And another thing that is I can't believe that anybody can do anything wrong intentionally, I believe that its the situation that makes people do wrong things, I don't know to what extend this is true, but today one of my belief was shattered, so I am now reconsidering these beliefs, I am still wondering how somebody can do like this! yuk yuk yuk! shame on you man! shame! I want to say him something, I recall a very popular dialogue of hindi films,

"Ek baar maang kar to dekhta main, dosti ke liye jaan bhi de deta, par tumne aisa kaam kar ke apne aap ko meri nazaron se gira diya"

So I now believe that not everybody is like atleast me, there are few persons who are even poorer than me. Since I don't think that there is anyone even pittier than me. This incident made me realize that I have to be careful and to not to think that evryone is as he looks like from outside. There is a qawalli sung by Ustad Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan,


दोस्तों की शिकायत करुँ मैं
यह भी मुझ को गवारा नहीं है
लोग काँटों से बच क चलते हैं
हम ने फूँलों से ज़ख्म खाए हैं
तुम तो गैरों की बात करते हो
हम ने तो अपने भी आजमाए हैं

दोस्तों की शिकायत करुँ मैं
ये भी मुझ को गवारा नहीं है
दोस्तों ने करम वो किए हैं
जिंदगी की तमन्ना नहीं है

दुनिया में बंदे क खुदा होने
का वक्त आया उन्हें देखा तो
जाहिद नै कहा, ईमान की ये है
क उब इंसान वो सजदा रवा
होने का वक्त आया
अरे तौबा तौबा...
हंस इ जनान तौबा तौबा


I am hurt, and I don't know I may ever be able to with you like I was earlier, I have so many faults in me, but above all these I am not a person who can forget this thing. The thing that hurt me is that why you need to do that, why? If you are reading this you know what I am talking about. Alas!



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