Fighters

there is so much to write down , i am not getting where to start. Today I am having very low spirit of life. It suddenly happened and I just felt to sad, I am really crying inside I don't know what for? The life is very important for me, I don't want to die just finding nothing. I believe that we are given this life to explore the cause why we are alive? but we are just living like animals. I don't want to die before I explore that reason , and I know the only way is meditation. Listening to Osho's discourses really is a divine experience, I feel so relaxed while listening Osho that I wish it could remain so for whole life time!

i think i would never be able to tell mumma that how much I love her. It is something that is beyond my capacity, i really never happen to tell her anything, but i do miss her. I really don't know what is this, but these days I am missing you mumma very much. All the time, I am thinking about you , a very strange feeling is adoring me all the time, so many memories are just not letting me alone whenever i sit, they just stuck to me. I really don't understand what is happening. You are the only who loves me for whatever I am , I really can't understand how could you love me so much, in spite of so many blenders I make everyday, I have hurt you so many time , still you always care for me and wish the every best thing for me from god. You are simply great, I miss u , but I know I will never tell you , you even know that.

It’s really strange that how could I be like that, I never thought that I can behave like that. I was not aware that I can do that also. But now I am gaining confidence. Sometimes I find that I am damn good at few things but I myself am not aware of that. I am true music lover. NUSRAT FATEH ALI KHAN, ABIDA PARVEEN, GHULAM ALI, JAGJEET SINGH, MEHNDI HASSAN are the artists whose songs make me think about life, my day cannot start without listening their songs. These artists are not just singers they sing from heart, I believe that the god himself make them sing they are just medium but the god is the true singer, how can anybody sing such superbly, remaining so effortless. I am short of words, they are just too good. I love TALAT MAHMOOD. I am a big fan of his. His voice is the sweetest voice I have ever heard. His songs are awesome. Many of his songs are among my favourites. I just love listening them every time. AYE DIL MUJHE AISE JAGAH LE CHAL, TU AYE NA AYE...

Chapter 1: My little love story. Today is a cold night of post Christmas, I feeling too heat while writing this down, as it is something very warm to write down. It’s right from deep of my heart. Many strange thoughts are wandering in my mind. I want to write down something about her. She is so sweet not as beautiful as Ash or as Priety but I believe she is conscious, well mannered and aware enough to stay still in this world and she can prove herself in this smart world. Attracted by someone Is it love, if yes? Why, why, why? Does she like me? If no, I ask, Why, why, why? I need you. I want to smile. I have heard you make people laugh. You have made people find their smile back. I’ve lost mine, earlier I used to have a great smile. Help me! My world comes to an end, Whenever I don’t find you, You are the only hope for life. I’ll die, if I loose you, Never try to disappear, As you are the only hope for life. My dear, You would have forgotten me, but I can’t for...

CHAPTER 0.0: SOMETHING ABOUT ME- THE SPIRTUAL ME This song seems as if it is written about me. It really had caught my heart: TASVEER BANATA HOON TASVEER NAHIN BANTI MUJHSE TO MERI BIGDI TAKDEER NAHIN BANTI EK KHWAB SA DEKHA HAI TABEER NAHIN BANTI BEDARD MUHABBAT KA ITNA SA HAI AFSANA NAZRON SE MILI NAZRAEIN MAIN HO GAYA DEEWANA DAM BHAR KE LIYE MERI DUNIYA MEIN CHALE AAO TARSISI HUI AANKHON KO PHIR SAKL DIKHA JAOO When you understand some thing it’s only what you think as you are mistaken nothing is totally understandable. This moment you understand something the other moment you realize, you still need time to understand it. Men are very typical to understand. Human psychology is really very tough to understand. A man can be helpful, he can be generous, curious, and fearful in fact there are so many characters a man can play. At times I try to understand but I failed. How a man can understand any body else? This question wonders me a lot. A man, who loves you, helps you become sudde...