CHAPTER 0.0: SOMETHING ABOUT ME- THE SPIRTUAL ME
This song seems as if it is written about me. It really had caught my heart:
TASVEER BANATA HOON TASVEER NAHIN BANTI
MUJHSE TO MERI BIGDI TAKDEER NAHIN BANTI
EK KHWAB SA DEKHA HAI
TABEER NAHIN BANTI
BEDARD MUHABBAT KA
ITNA SA HAI AFSANA
NAZRON SE MILI NAZRAEIN
MAIN HO GAYA DEEWANA
DAM BHAR KE LIYE MERI
DUNIYA MEIN CHALE AAO
TARSISI HUI AANKHON KO
PHIR SAKL DIKHA JAOO
When you understand some thing it’s only what you think as you are mistaken nothing is totally understandable. This moment you understand something the other moment you realize, you still need time to understand it.
Men are very typical to understand. Human psychology is really very tough to understand. A man can be helpful, he can be generous, curious, and fearful in fact there are so many characters a man can play. At times I try to understand but I failed. How a man can understand any body else? This question wonders me a lot. A man, who loves you, helps you become suddenly starts hating you. Even I myself sometimes don’t like someone whom I loved very much. This is I think human nature.
Why, why, why?
Why I am? Neither
a need, nor a reason;
then why I am?
No one will die,
Nothing will change,
If I were not, then why I am?
My dear soul,
I’ve recalled you after a very long period, please pardon me. I was so much busy in my outer world that I even forgot you. But now I have realized that without you I am nothing. One thing that I’ve learned in these years that only one who lives for himself succeeds, others always face troubles.
Happiness is an inner feeling. Our forefathers had made few days reserved for celebration. We call them festivals. But I wonder why so few days for happiness and all other days for sorrow and grief. Why can’t we make everyday a festival, why not each day is as new as it’s the first day of existence? Osho’s thoughts about happiness are wonderful. He says that make each day , each hour, each moment of your life as beautiful as enjoyable as it is the last day of your life, who knows if there is any other day reserved for you or not.
Why should we celebrate our life? The answer is: celebrate because you are given a chance, celebrate because somebody is happy around you celebrate because a new baby has born, celebrate because somebody has left this planet, there are so many reasons; indeed the inner happiness doesn’t need any reason, only happiness without
any reason lasts forever. I celebrate or rather try to celebrate because I exist, because I am still alive, because god has made me what I am, because I am unique.
Once again I’ve decided to start living life. I liked the say by Shahrukh Khan that God has granted us the age but life is when we say yes to it, I think I have to yet say yes to life. My way of working and the way of thinking are totally apart. I always thought of being taken hand to hand but I forget that since I had never tried to make a good relation then how I can get a good relation. As it is the basic rule of nature that without input there is no output, I am indeed hoping of PMM – perpetual motion machine, which doesn’t exist. I want to over come my past. I think I am surrounded by guys which are not of my type. But I have never tried to change my surroundings, I am not a guy of that type who can come forward and fight from whole world.
Stay ahead of time. Nothing worth when not done at time. Initially thoughts are related to age. Our thinking gets changed as we become older. I’ve found that the particular thoughts are for particular moment, we can’t be sure of same feeling for somebody every time. Nothing runs faster than our thoughts.
God is great, I am tiny;
Instead of it he tests me,
Tough time is my exam,
I’ll succeed or not, I know
Not, I am being tested, although
He cares for me, I know not, why?
Why, why, why?
I always suffer when I don’t listen to myself. I don’t know how to live life if any body can tell me how to live life? I want to do many things in this life but I am afraid if I can do all those or not?
Most recent thing that I want to do is to play tennis, I just started to love this game. I just want to enjoy playing this game if I can do it; it would be like a dream come true. I watched Wimbledon final between Roger and Nadal that was the best tennis final I ever watched I am Nadal’s die hard fan.
Another thing that I want to do is to dance, dance like Hrithik Roshan, this is actually not recent desire rather it is one of the oldest desire of mine , but know I desperately want to dance, dance among people on stage, this is really a dream.
I want to be an entrepreneur, I want to have my own software firm and it’s Saarang.com. It will be a truth within a few years. And I want to be a CEO of my own company.
I want to have a girlfriend. It is also not a recent desire I really want to have a girlfriend I want to experience that how people could talk to anybody for hours without any reason. It’s really amazing; I do wish to experience that. I think I am lacking something in life. Female thinking is very different from male ones. And I think I am not too sure about how females think on any situation or how they react on any incident. May be these seem some fake reasons but can’t help it.
I want to write many things but I don’t find how to write them down. I want to write down a whole book on myself I will write a novel one day, I think it’s my another dream. I am not sure if am that good, but I can improve and one day I’ll be a writer. Guess what will be the name of that book it is ‘Jungle Babbler 101’. Will you purchase my book; after all I want to hit the chartbusters. I want to write down a book from my point of view about life and people. This book will be different from others.
On many situations I find my self helpless. Why I am the way I am? I think about it many a times I found my self in a situation I for which I regret later. One of the situation like that is when I went to a marriage party of my neighbour and I was alone, I had no friends there I felt so embarrassed that I now hate to attend any marriage party.
Okay this is the starting of my book, hi every body, welcome to Shree’s world. You don’t know me and you really not need to know me. I am you. I am somebody in you. I am a wish. I am desire. I am like you. This is what this book is all about the desire and the desperation. The whole world is living on a hope that another day will be better than today. The next time coming will be superior then this one. It is something that fascinates everybody: the future. In this book there are all desires that I ever had. I had tried to go through all of them. This book is not a fiction. It is true, true in a sense. These desires are true, may be the incidents are imaginary but they are based on what I wanted, these are based on what everybody wanted. Reading this book need that you don’t use your mind at all. You have to think from heart. Let your imagination fly, just let yourself free. It is a story about you. It’s not my story. It is a story of every body who ever had any desire. This is what I called it: Jungle Babbler 101. Don’t read this book, just swim into it, and you will find more than what I have written.
This song seems as if it is written about me. It really had caught my heart:
TASVEER BANATA HOON TASVEER NAHIN BANTI
MUJHSE TO MERI BIGDI TAKDEER NAHIN BANTI
EK KHWAB SA DEKHA HAI
TABEER NAHIN BANTI
BEDARD MUHABBAT KA
ITNA SA HAI AFSANA
NAZRON SE MILI NAZRAEIN
MAIN HO GAYA DEEWANA
DAM BHAR KE LIYE MERI
DUNIYA MEIN CHALE AAO
TARSISI HUI AANKHON KO
PHIR SAKL DIKHA JAOO
When you understand some thing it’s only what you think as you are mistaken nothing is totally understandable. This moment you understand something the other moment you realize, you still need time to understand it.
Men are very typical to understand. Human psychology is really very tough to understand. A man can be helpful, he can be generous, curious, and fearful in fact there are so many characters a man can play. At times I try to understand but I failed. How a man can understand any body else? This question wonders me a lot. A man, who loves you, helps you become suddenly starts hating you. Even I myself sometimes don’t like someone whom I loved very much. This is I think human nature.
Why, why, why?
Why I am? Neither
a need, nor a reason;
then why I am?
No one will die,
Nothing will change,
If I were not, then why I am?
My dear soul,
I’ve recalled you after a very long period, please pardon me. I was so much busy in my outer world that I even forgot you. But now I have realized that without you I am nothing. One thing that I’ve learned in these years that only one who lives for himself succeeds, others always face troubles.
Happiness is an inner feeling. Our forefathers had made few days reserved for celebration. We call them festivals. But I wonder why so few days for happiness and all other days for sorrow and grief. Why can’t we make everyday a festival, why not each day is as new as it’s the first day of existence? Osho’s thoughts about happiness are wonderful. He says that make each day , each hour, each moment of your life as beautiful as enjoyable as it is the last day of your life, who knows if there is any other day reserved for you or not.
Why should we celebrate our life? The answer is: celebrate because you are given a chance, celebrate because somebody is happy around you celebrate because a new baby has born, celebrate because somebody has left this planet, there are so many reasons; indeed the inner happiness doesn’t need any reason, only happiness without
any reason lasts forever. I celebrate or rather try to celebrate because I exist, because I am still alive, because god has made me what I am, because I am unique.
Once again I’ve decided to start living life. I liked the say by Shahrukh Khan that God has granted us the age but life is when we say yes to it, I think I have to yet say yes to life. My way of working and the way of thinking are totally apart. I always thought of being taken hand to hand but I forget that since I had never tried to make a good relation then how I can get a good relation. As it is the basic rule of nature that without input there is no output, I am indeed hoping of PMM – perpetual motion machine, which doesn’t exist. I want to over come my past. I think I am surrounded by guys which are not of my type. But I have never tried to change my surroundings, I am not a guy of that type who can come forward and fight from whole world.
Stay ahead of time. Nothing worth when not done at time. Initially thoughts are related to age. Our thinking gets changed as we become older. I’ve found that the particular thoughts are for particular moment, we can’t be sure of same feeling for somebody every time. Nothing runs faster than our thoughts.
God is great, I am tiny;
Instead of it he tests me,
Tough time is my exam,
I’ll succeed or not, I know
Not, I am being tested, although
He cares for me, I know not, why?
Why, why, why?
I always suffer when I don’t listen to myself. I don’t know how to live life if any body can tell me how to live life? I want to do many things in this life but I am afraid if I can do all those or not?
Most recent thing that I want to do is to play tennis, I just started to love this game. I just want to enjoy playing this game if I can do it; it would be like a dream come true. I watched Wimbledon final between Roger and Nadal that was the best tennis final I ever watched I am Nadal’s die hard fan.
Another thing that I want to do is to dance, dance like Hrithik Roshan, this is actually not recent desire rather it is one of the oldest desire of mine , but know I desperately want to dance, dance among people on stage, this is really a dream.
I want to be an entrepreneur, I want to have my own software firm and it’s Saarang.com. It will be a truth within a few years. And I want to be a CEO of my own company.
I want to have a girlfriend. It is also not a recent desire I really want to have a girlfriend I want to experience that how people could talk to anybody for hours without any reason. It’s really amazing; I do wish to experience that. I think I am lacking something in life. Female thinking is very different from male ones. And I think I am not too sure about how females think on any situation or how they react on any incident. May be these seem some fake reasons but can’t help it.
I want to write many things but I don’t find how to write them down. I want to write down a whole book on myself I will write a novel one day, I think it’s my another dream. I am not sure if am that good, but I can improve and one day I’ll be a writer. Guess what will be the name of that book it is ‘Jungle Babbler 101’. Will you purchase my book; after all I want to hit the chartbusters. I want to write down a book from my point of view about life and people. This book will be different from others.
On many situations I find my self helpless. Why I am the way I am? I think about it many a times I found my self in a situation I for which I regret later. One of the situation like that is when I went to a marriage party of my neighbour and I was alone, I had no friends there I felt so embarrassed that I now hate to attend any marriage party.
Okay this is the starting of my book, hi every body, welcome to Shree’s world. You don’t know me and you really not need to know me. I am you. I am somebody in you. I am a wish. I am desire. I am like you. This is what this book is all about the desire and the desperation. The whole world is living on a hope that another day will be better than today. The next time coming will be superior then this one. It is something that fascinates everybody: the future. In this book there are all desires that I ever had. I had tried to go through all of them. This book is not a fiction. It is true, true in a sense. These desires are true, may be the incidents are imaginary but they are based on what I wanted, these are based on what everybody wanted. Reading this book need that you don’t use your mind at all. You have to think from heart. Let your imagination fly, just let yourself free. It is a story about you. It’s not my story. It is a story of every body who ever had any desire. This is what I called it: Jungle Babbler 101. Don’t read this book, just swim into it, and you will find more than what I have written.
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