Fighters

I am almost sleepy couldn't even type properly but I want to write a post right now, so I am here, I am feeling quite unsecure right now. today i realize thaat for a person like me, who is not used to be personally attached with anybody and who does't care for any body, getting this much attenion can be killing, sometimes I see myself as a spoiled person, sometimes I find myself as split personality and sometimes I find myself as having multiple personality disorder. and really all these are true. yesterday I came from college, entered my room and looked at mirror, for one moment I couldn't recognize myself, yes really. I am very very inconsistence i will continue this post later, right now I am half slept

Just 3-4 more months :) listening to these words, it made me curious. What does that mean? I met one of my uncle, yesterday, he is a self made astrologer. He just said these words before we left. nothing more. And I know, its worthless thinking about what that could mean. but first thought that came to my mind was, he may wanted to say that everything gonna be alright in 3-4 months, ha ha! so as if everything is not right, right now? That's not true. Infact I am enjoying the life at fullest, so many things happening altogether. Thats life, without happenings whats life? nothing! so everything is alright right now not 3-4 months laters, this is my prediction and its true. Do I believe in predictions, astrology? I think to my inner most being, it gives me a little excitement, I don't know why, but I can't deny from that. There can be some truth in these predictions, may be 4-5% but it can give you rays of hope and that can work magically. So I think there is nothing wrong in...

It is like an internal crisis, results are out and starting this post like this tells that all is not well ;) Instead of cursing anything or anybody I am going to put something here for everybody who is in the similar situation, to console everyone like me. Lets start with Madhushala, as madhu is the best thing considered for the situation like this, लाल सुरा क धार लपट सी, कह न इसे देना ज्वाला, फेनिल मदिरा है मत इसको कह देना उर का छाला, दर्द नशा है इस मदिरा का, विगत स्मृतिया साकी है, पीड़ा में आनंद जिसे हो आए मेरी मधुशाला! Again there are few more very beautiful lines from Madhushala, for everybody who has a good past related to *marks* एक समय संतुष्ट बहुत था पा मैं थोडी सी हाला भोला सा था मेरा साकी छोटा सा मेरा प्याला विस्तृत जग में है गई खो मेरी नन्ही मधुशाला Now I am providing a list of must listen songs for the situation like this, तुझसे नाराज़ नहीं ज़िन्दगी हैरान हूँ मैं 2. मेरा जीवन कोरा कागज़ कोरा ही रह गया 3. दुनिया बनाने वाले क्या तेरे मन में समाई 4. ए दिल मुझे ऐसी जगह ल...

The chance of me getting out on 99 is very very low, why? Am I so confident, I don't get nervous in situations like this or what? ha ha, because I'll never ever reach near 99 :) It takes lots of effort to make 99 runs, and that last one run, that is a marking point, why so? Why we get disappointed if we couldn't make the last one run, instead of celebrating 99 runs, we get deserted! Why so? I think those 99 runs are more important, if I can make them। I'll be happy for 99 runs! but that too is really really tough! another way to see this situation is that the journey is also important not just the destination, if we can make our journey beautiful, we may never regret for not reaching the destination, I am not saying that there is no importance of reaching the destination, but what if we couldn't reach destination? This is when we think about journey, if the journey is worth something we can have a sense of achievement. There is a say in hindi, my cousin used to te...

After around one year, I am writing a blog post sitting in college computer lab! It reminds me of days when I used to sit iin college computer labs for hours. Those were the days when I was in first year and I didn't have internet access at hostel room. The spirit was amazingly high during those days. I remember going back to college when others where sleeping in room, during hot winds summer time. I used to surf random things, anything that comes my way and keep digging! Now the scene has changed a little, instead of college computer lab I have internet at my room, and nothing else has change :) just getting a little bit nostalgic. WOW college computer labs are of some use, still. And we have Red hat installed wow wow! though the internet speed is just above being pity! everything else is fine! WOW!! Bye for now, its lecture time! ;) Bunking is on the cards though!

Its been so long since i really wrote something out of my heart, tonight i am little un busy ;) so taking this opportunity to write here. From last couple of weeks I have been trying something new with myself. I am playing a game with myself. The game is to tame myself the way I am. I am learning how to get best work out of myself. I think that if I can learn how to get myself work, I can do wonders. It's not that there is a certain formula for success, even there is one formula for each person. All we need is to pick the formula that is for us, trying someone else' s formula will never lead to any destination. I have learned that I need to work a little differently and this understanding is doing wonders for me till now. Another secret I would like to share with you all is the "law of attraction", this law is which is governing our life. Everything we get in life is the outcome of what we desired, everything is result of attraction, if we want something to happen, th...

I am listening to a very very beautiful ghazal by Ghulam ali, and I want to dedicate this post to this ghazal। The ghazal starts with a 'sher' which goes like, अपनी आवाज़ की लर्जिश पे तो काबू पा लो, प्यार के बोल तो होठों से निकल आते है, अपने तेवर तो सम्भालों की कोई ये न कहे दिल बदलते है तो चेहरे भी बदल जाते है। I don't remember how many times i have listened this ghazal but still each time i listen to this, it gives me a new meaning. This is the beauty of ghazals, you can get a new meaning every time you listen. ये दिल ये पागल दिल मेरा क्यूँ बुझ गया, आवारगी, इस दस्त में इक शहर था वो क्या हुआ, आवारगी! The english translation is impossible, attempting that will be like killing the ghazal। What I could understand from this line is "what had happened to me", इक अजनबी झोंके ने जब पूछा जब मेरे ग़म का शबब सेहरा की भीगी रेत पे मैंने लिखा, आवारगी। Then ghulam ali sahab takes us to some other place by just his voice, amazing. ये दर्द की तन्हाईयाँ, ये दस्त का वीरान सफर, हम ल...