Fighters

Four years have passed like four days. I still remember the first day of college. I was very scared of ragging and seniors. Though I was convinced that I will handle all that, but even then I had a little fear with lots of joy. And I met a senior just few minutes after I entered the college. The devil was looking at me, I tried to avoid him, gathered courage and tried to pass him, but had to stop. I looked at him, he looked at me. I was not aware of some eye culture here. The next half an hour I was with among four others of my class, one girl and three of us and the senior, he seemed to be a music lover, he wanted us to sing song for him. I knew if I sing something will happen. I sang so loudly that teachers from classes by side came there and scolded that senior. That was the first day of college and today is the last day of college. I had nothing with me on that day and today I am an engineer, with lots of dreams, lots of ideas and of course an engineering degree and a joining lett

I spent many nights in college computer lab alone, only me in computer lab at night. From 12:30 pm in day to 8:30 am in morning of next day. I have been in lab many times like this. The toughest part of this is when everbody else in lab leaves at 5:00 pm in evening and ask if I too want to leave. when I realize of that question and want to answer that I looked at watch and its 12:30 am, it took me 7 hours to answer that question and felt like just one minute. For few seconds I felt hungry, but at this time in area where my college is I can't dream of anything to eat, the other moment, I was again in computer. I looked back at watch, its 2:10 am, time flies. I realize this. But I wonder I didn't feel sleepy at all. Its 2:10 am in morning, its strange. At 7:30 am in morning Guard sahab of computer lab came. He looked at me, asked me why I've came so early. I said I was here from yesterday morning.

Looking at myself, sitting in classroom, I am the most stupid person I think, instead of looking at what she is teaching I am writing this thing, who can be a stupid than me. Things are not normal that's for sure, heating up. I am learning , as much I try to keep myself away from things or situations as much I find myself indulged in them simply unintentionally. And I find that older people behave more like a child. I can simply visualize this these days. The situation I was in for last 11 days , I never want to be in. In those 11 days I had food for 4 times, walked 30 miles, had almost 20 litres of cold-drinks or juice, watched two movies in theatre, attended 24 long lectures from terrible teachers, didn't listen a single ghazal of any sort, didn't checked my mail for one week, I was fined 1000 bucks by HOD for not being in uniform, I was awake for 48 hours continuously, had bath 7 times.