Fighters

The only thing that troubles me these days is the situation that just carve in no time! Sometimes I think I will not do such thing once more, but I happen to practice the same thing more often. I hate myself for that! And after that I feel guilty again I know for no reasons and then after some time I get normal! The problem is that all these things distract me from what I was into and it then take me a long time to again get into that frame of mind! And the cycle repeats again and again! I decide not to do something than situation become such that I have to do that, then I feel guilty and then get normal! And so on! My whole life revolves in this cycle! And I am here to write something that made me feel very low. I am wondering if I could ever write something happy I always write something very much sad, isn't it so, I guess it is so, I was traveling in bus from home to Bikaner, yesterday I was wondering if I could get a good company, you know what i mean by good company ;) the wa

Happy! Are you happy? Hey I am confused more than happy? Why I am confused? I was thinking about my future, I know its worthless to think much about future but I want to decide about my future! I am at home for holidays and as usual I am doing nothing! This is a thing I hate! To be at home and doing nothing! But I can't help that for no reason. I was talking with my mummy papa about my future, and as they think about my future is that I may get a job of 20-30 thousand bucks or may 40-50 thousand at most! Is that true? Mummy asked me! I said no comments on that, and papa was telling about our businesses and all that! So getting a job of 20-30 thousand bucks and that also some thousand miles away from home, working almost 20+ hrs like bulls in any software company! Why? Situation is like this? Mummy asked me, just for fun , if I could earn more than what my papa have? I couldn't answer that! So I was all busy searching for this question and happened to switch on television and a

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I wonder if we can measure emotions with some unit, like I am 2 kg happy or 1 kg sad,or 1 liter sad! i always use it! and today i am 2 kg happy! It has become our tendency to compare things, like 1 kg is equivalent to the mass of platinum cylinder kept in some place under the observation of a international organization so the thing is that everything is relative, since i am about to set a unit for happiness , i too need to set some standard from which we will compare our happiness, lets take some person as standard, can it be Warren Buffet, after all he is the world's richest person, we can put him as standard, but then there is a problem, he will not be the richest person all the time, so he will not be the happiest person all the time, so can it be Shahrukh khan! he is the king khan, billions of people love him, surely he is the happiest person, but i am sure he will not the happiest person all the time, so he also can't be the standard! so what can be the standard for unit o

Today I happen to read my past diaries which i wrote before my college life and i find that i have not written much about my college days. So this is going to be the starting point for that, so the situation is that i am in second year of my four year engineering course, its a great feeling to see yourself doing something you always wanted, life is totally different from earlier, these days i am thinking about world :-) really I want to change something in this world or to do something very much visible :O oh! Being a little bit ambitious ya this is the change Oh! I am a little bit open now, can express myself more easily, now thats really a huge advancement i still remember myself and can see that it is a nice change. One more thing someone came in my life, :-) oh! Its a joke, actually i am trying to get anybody in my life! ;) oh i am really loving these smileys oh! One more thing i am now thinking about future ha! Ha! Ha! Ya i am serious, i am hoping to do something for my future oh

Before I start writing I want to describe situation around me, I am peeling off first layer, so the situation can be like this, exams are over, and we are relaxed. Its something little deeper now let's peel off another layer, then its me, I am writing about situation around me, and I recalled a phrase, someone said, “group creativity” at that time I controlled myself but not this time, I can't, so I want to laugh, ha ha ha I can't imagine of something like group creativity, OK leave this for now! Today I am here to talk on very unusual topic for me, a very common issue for many, and it may look like I am wasting time by writing on this topic, the relationships. Many time I think about it! Looking all around people talk a lot about it. I thought about an intimate relationship, but truly I have some virtual relationships and when I think about them I find that they are very much real than these relationships people are talking about all the time. I have made a definition of

the only thing i can do with this limited alloted time is write a post :) i can surely do this, and no regrets at all! this is life! i am busy in not getting busy! so the situation is like i am busy for nothing! things not going the way i wanted, but thats life! nothing goes the way we want, and thats the fun of being life, other wise it would have been machines, programs isn't it? yup so no regrets for this! i will cop up soon and what if i don't ? nothing! i remember one phrase we used to utter "But the life goes on and on" and i am practicing that! i wonder where has all my friends gone , none of them is online! not a single i think its too early for them in vacation ;) but i am missing them all, please if you are reading this come online!! reasons are many, just many, i have lots of things to write down, but i am afraid i don't have enough time to write them all ;) may be someday i will! during these summer i have learned one thing that be prepared, i mean pl

very strange for me to write about economy, government, and most specifically the inflation, but i am about to write on all these, the news channels are shouting all the time that the inflation rate is at all time high from last 13 years, and prices are rising up, making the life of common man miserable! and i am a common man, right? so according to them i am living in a misery! help me, save me! i am confused over that! does that affect us, this much! i am not convinced by that. surely the prices are rising, but the panic among the common man is being created by news channel thats for sure, before 13 years the inflation was same as today! as they say, so didn't we life that up, so do we live this situation who need to worry about that! the news channels they are worrying about this the most! the way they are describing the situation is making the situation even more worst! what the hell common man had to do with inflation, what he knows is that they have to pay more for the vegeta

holidays, vacation time, yes it is so, but not as fascinating as they were earlier, really i think holidays are no more we want, why do we want holidays, just to spoil one month? i don't want that! but i am a victim of system, i have to have holidays! unconditionally!! so i am again at home! killing time! and the most frustrating thing is that i don't have an internet connection here at home!! so not doing much! can't be online and can't really help it! trying hard to get a broadband connection at home! but looks like it may take few more weeks so i am not getting internet this summer, i am sitting in a cyber cafe right now, may be a few more minutes! this is a thing i want to change! and for my summer of code project, its really crawling! though i have made a little advancement, but still not as much as it should be, but one good thing is that i am finished up with sakshama website! and i am totally satisfied with it and with my effort! i am proud of my sakshama websit