Fighters

there is so much to write down , i am not getting where to start. Today I am having very low spirit of life. It suddenly happened and I just felt to sad, I am really crying inside I don't know what for? The life is very important for me, I don't want to die just finding nothing. I believe that we are given this life to explore the cause why we are alive? but we are just living like animals. I don't want to die before I explore that reason , and I know the only way is meditation. Listening to Osho's discourses really is a divine experience, I feel so relaxed while listening Osho that I wish it could remain so for whole life time!

i think i would never be able to tell mumma that how much I love her. It is something that is beyond my capacity, i really never happen to tell her anything, but i do miss her. I really don't know what is this, but these days I am missing you mumma very much. All the time, I am thinking about you , a very strange feeling is adoring me all the time, so many memories are just not letting me alone whenever i sit, they just stuck to me. I really don't understand what is happening. You are the only who loves me for whatever I am , I really can't understand how could you love me so much, in spite of so many blenders I make everyday, I have hurt you so many time , still you always care for me and wish the every best thing for me from god. You are simply great, I miss u , but I know I will never tell you , you even know that.

It’s really strange that how could I be like that, I never thought that I can behave like that. I was not aware that I can do that also. But now I am gaining confidence. Sometimes I find that I am damn good at few things but I myself am not aware of that. I am true music lover. NUSRAT FATEH ALI KHAN, ABIDA PARVEEN, GHULAM ALI, JAGJEET SINGH, MEHNDI HASSAN are the artists whose songs make me think about life, my day cannot start without listening their songs. These artists are not just singers they sing from heart, I believe that the god himself make them sing they are just medium but the god is the true singer, how can anybody sing such superbly, remaining so effortless. I am short of words, they are just too good. I love TALAT MAHMOOD. I am a big fan of his. His voice is the sweetest voice I have ever heard. His songs are awesome. Many of his songs are among my favourites. I just love listening them every time. AYE DIL MUJHE AISE JAGAH LE CHAL, TU AYE NA AYE

Chapter 1: My little love story. Today is a cold night of post Christmas, I feeling too heat while writing this down, as it is something very warm to write down. It’s right from deep of my heart. Many strange thoughts are wandering in my mind. I want to write down something about her. She is so sweet not as beautiful as Ash or as Priety but I believe she is conscious, well mannered and aware enough to stay still in this world and she can prove herself in this smart world. Attracted by someone Is it love, if yes? Why, why, why? Does she like me? If no, I ask, Why, why, why? I need you. I want to smile. I have heard you make people laugh. You have made people find their smile back. I’ve lost mine, earlier I used to have a great smile. Help me! My world comes to an end, Whenever I don’t find you, You are the only hope for life. I’ll die, if I loose you, Never try to disappear, As you are the only hope for life. My dear, You would have forgotten me, but I can’t for

CHAPTER 0.0: SOMETHING ABOUT ME- THE SPIRTUAL ME This song seems as if it is written about me. It really had caught my heart: TASVEER BANATA HOON TASVEER NAHIN BANTI MUJHSE TO MERI BIGDI TAKDEER NAHIN BANTI EK KHWAB SA DEKHA HAI TABEER NAHIN BANTI BEDARD MUHABBAT KA ITNA SA HAI AFSANA NAZRON SE MILI NAZRAEIN MAIN HO GAYA DEEWANA DAM BHAR KE LIYE MERI DUNIYA MEIN CHALE AAO TARSISI HUI AANKHON KO PHIR SAKL DIKHA JAOO When you understand some thing it’s only what you think as you are mistaken nothing is totally understandable. This moment you understand something the other moment you realize, you still need time to understand it. Men are very typical to understand. Human psychology is really very tough to understand. A man can be helpful, he can be generous, curious, and fearful in fact there are so many characters a man can play. At times I try to understand but I failed. How a man can understand any body else? This question wonders me a lot. A man, who loves you, helps you become sudde

Welcome to the city of desert. I am back to bikaner, this time with new desires and new hope. It is a great feeling to do something for your future. When I find many others doing the same I start thinking differently , Every body in hostel is unsure about his future. Every body here is blamming others for every odd thing happening in his life, we were talking @ terrace of hostel , and each of us was just critisizing the system for whatever going wrong in country, I was also not differnt. But whenever I sit alone I start analaysing myself and in that time I found that how rude I was behaving, its really disgusting. I am now starting not to blame any body else and I just want to take on the world myself alone.

while writing this post in the cyber cafe @ jodhpur railway station , i found this whole concept of providing internet access to the tourists who are waiting , a great initiative. I really love this whole concept. I am on my way back to home after a short visit to Mt.Abu and Osho Manan Neo sanyas commune @ Mehshana. The journey was quite different in many sense , as it was our first journey without parents , also the journey was different as we had no planning we four just went there . this is enough for now , i will write more in the next post.

Google is the giant killer. Google means perfection. I don't hate Google. I just love Google. Google is there to help us. I agree that Google is not just a search engine it is more than a search engine. I don't think no other internet company is providing this much facilities and each service is like the way we wished to have, so there is no reason why should I hate Google, I just love Google. Larry Page and Sergey Brin are awesome they are really working for us. I think that they are working more for us than any other company even better than Microsoft because they are providing all the information available in such a way that we wished to have, this is the most important thing , there is so much information available the need is to organize all this in a way that can easily accessible. Google's motto is Do no evil and when they say that they really mean that. Although there are so many lawsuits which Google is facing but all these are obvious since Google is making eve

The time seems like passing just doing nothing at all. I don't know how to utilize my time , sometimes i become so much frustrated by myself that i begin to hate myself. It is very difficult for me be organized. I can't do things like machines do. But i know that i have to be managed to get succeeded in life. I hoping to get some positive changes in myself with time, as i know i can do many things much better. Planning is fake when it comes to to reality , it happens which is made to happen.

hello! From last one week i am busy thinking about this sakshama our college techfest. The day i heard the news that this sort of event is being organized in our college i was so excited that i can't tell. Sakshama is like a dream come true for me. There are many reasons for why i am too much excited about it. Since i belong to a small city i am never exposed to any such event. I always wished to be a part of any such event. Also there are few other reasons for me getting so excited that i think this is a chance for Engineering College bikaner to be in lime light. If organized well it can be proved as a 'Sanjeevni' for our college. I hope our BOSSeS will do their job honestly. 'Dare to be a part of SAKSHAMA' the title seem to some what strange , but you will be convinced after reading. Since i was so excited about sakshama so i was all looking into any stuff related to this event i visited its offical site www.sakshama.org , i was amazed to see such a nice site

Call us Fighters! Its a great thing to have something to write down. Starting my first blog this time, i have decided to be regular in posting blog, reason I want my self updated as well as my friends, i want to be expressive. I hope I could do a better job this time. Being an engineering student you are supposed to do many things simultaneously. The whole thing is that we have to manage several things in such a way that they should not get mixed. Here in this post i am calling all the engineering students the real 'fighters'. This fighting is against silly old thinking of our elders, this fighting is against those stupid lecturers like our computer teacher, who think they know everything but not C, this fighting is against the mind and soul, since these two always put you in trouble.