Fighters

Where to start! Its been a long journey started sometime back in first year of my engineering, three years back. The journey of this blog is very much similar to what my life has been in these years. If someone goes through all posts he will realize that the posts on this blog vary much on topics, sometimes I wrote about dreams, sometimes about love, sometimes about technology, sometimes about relationships and many more, I wrote a couple of short stories, I wrote many incidents of my life during these days of engineering. I think i had never been so expressive as I had been here. I never talked much about topics I wrote here, its been wonderful, simply it helped me in my real life as well. I wrote many poems here, posted about various things happened with me. The blog has changed my image of being a very un -expressive guy to a highly thinking guy, nobody had thought that I can write on topics like girls, relationships, love but I wrote about them here! and this helped me show differe

सुना था बहुत, ये इश्क नहीं आशां बस इतना समझ लिझे, इक आग का दरिया है और डूब के जाना है। हंसा था इस पे बहुत मैं, कैसी आग और कैसा दरिया? आह! जब गुजरी ख़ुद पे, तो हँसी नही आया रोना। सच है, ये इश्क नही आशां। शायरों ने भले ही लिखा कुछ बढाकर, पर लिख दिया वो, जो मुमकिन नहीं करना बयां लफ्जों में।

तमन्ना का क्या है? आख़िर तमन्ना ही तो है! न ख्वाब है, न हकीकत है! तमन्ना तो बस तमन्ना है। जो सच नही वो ख्वाब है, जो सच है वो हकीकत है। जो ख्वाब हो कर भी हकीकत लगे, वो तमन्ना है शायद। खुली आंखों से जो दिखे, वो हकीकत है, जो बंद आंखों से दिखे वो ख्वाब है, जो दोनों से दिखे वो तमन्ना है शायद। सोच कर ही जिसके बारे में, आह निकले वो है तमन्ना! ख्वाब है न हकीकत है, तमन्ना तो बस तमन्ना है! ख्वाब तो फिर भी पूरे हो जाते है तमन्ना तो बस तमन्ना रहती है! पूरी हो जाए जो तमन्ना वो तमन्ना नहीं ख्वाब था। न ख्वाब है न हकीकत है, तमन्ना तो बस तमन्ना है। हर पल एक नई तमन्ना है, हर पल पुरानी को भूलना है। आख़िर तमन्ना ही तो है!

अब और नही रहा जाता आंखों से आँसू बना कर निकला नही जाता की अब और सहा नहीं जाता। तुम को देखकर आंखों को अब और झुकाया नहीं जाता। कोशिश की बहुत तुम्हे भुलाने की, पर अब और भुलाया नही जाता। जानता हूँ यह मुमकिन नहीं पर अब और रहा नही जाता। दिल के अरमानों को रखा दिल में बहुत पर अब और रखा नही जाता। करता रहा इंतज़ार की तुम करोगी इज़हार, पर अब यह इंतज़ार और नहीं सहा जाता, की आँखों से आंसू बना और नहीं निकला जाता!

Its been so long I got this much time to write a blog post! Finally I am writing a blog post! I am quite excited. Last few months have been real eventful. When I was a child, I always wanted to be the busiest person in the world. I loved to visit my papa's office, sitting on their chair would gave real pleasure. I had a lots of lots of desires. I dont know where have they all disappered. At the moment, what i desire is to let my all desires come to me, so that I can live them up. I have become neutral to outside world, and not only others me myself also feel this. I don't remember when last time I had a fight. I think fighting is a must, if you are not fighting it means something is surely missing! When we fight with outer world fight inside get stopped. So, I want to fight! I want to quarrel, I want to let my self free. There is one thing happening these days that I started thinking not too much, let the things happen. and I dont really read too much! and I feel to say somethi

कागज़ के फूलों में अब वो खुशबू न रही ये फूल कभी मुरझाते नही लगता है खिले है अभी देख के इनको सोचते रहे हम, वक्त है अभी बहुत, उड़ गई खुशबू तब पता चला हो गई देर बहुत!

मेरी टीचर मेनू कहन्दी है आंदा नही मेनू कुछ भी पापा मेनू कहंदे है तू मेरा नाम दुबायेगा ,मेरी अम्मा मेनू कहेंदी है एक सोनी कुडी मेनू मिलेगी मेरे यार कहेंदे है तू मुंडा कमाल है। मेरे पहले टेस्ट की तेयारी की मैंने ऐसे सारे सुब्जेक्ट्स के नाम मेनू अब है याद। अचानक आया मुझे ये ख्याल छोडू ये सब बातें, सुनो ये कहानी नई रात को जब में हॉस्टल की छत पर बैठा था, देख रहा था मैं कॉलेज को पता नही क्यूँ आँख मैं मेरे आँसू आ गए , मैंने देखा ख़ुद को रोते मुझे लगा कुछ अलग सा I love my college very much दिन भर कॉलेज मैं फिरता हूँ शाम होती है तो सोचता हूँ शाम क्यूँ हुई अब मैं सोचता हूँ उन दिनों के बारें में, सब कुछ इतना जल्दी जल्दी हो रहा है की क्या बताऊँ जैसे कल की हो ये बात अब तो रोंदा हूँ मैं पर पता नही क्यूँ , न समझेगी वो, न समझूंगा मैं कभी, इधर भी वो उधर भी वो every where it is she! मेरे जानने से या न जानने से क्या होगा, जानता हूँ मैं पर वो नही जानती, इतने दिंनों से पता नही क्या कहूं पर जब भी देखता हूँ तुझे लगता है जैसे धड़कन रुक सी गई, जानता हूँ मैं बर्बाद हूँ इंसान, पर पता नही क्यूँ सोचता हूँ मैं ऐस

Four years have passed like four days. I still remember the first day of college. I was very scared of ragging and seniors. Though I was convinced that I will handle all that, but even then I had a little fear with lots of joy. And I met a senior just few minutes after I entered the college. The devil was looking at me, I tried to avoid him, gathered courage and tried to pass him, but had to stop. I looked at him, he looked at me. I was not aware of some eye culture here. The next half an hour I was with among four others of my class, one girl and three of us and the senior, he seemed to be a music lover, he wanted us to sing song for him. I knew if I sing something will happen. I sang so loudly that teachers from classes by side came there and scolded that senior. That was the first day of college and today is the last day of college. I had nothing with me on that day and today I am an engineer, with lots of dreams, lots of ideas and of course an engineering degree and a joining lett

I spent many nights in college computer lab alone, only me in computer lab at night. From 12:30 pm in day to 8:30 am in morning of next day. I have been in lab many times like this. The toughest part of this is when everbody else in lab leaves at 5:00 pm in evening and ask if I too want to leave. when I realize of that question and want to answer that I looked at watch and its 12:30 am, it took me 7 hours to answer that question and felt like just one minute. For few seconds I felt hungry, but at this time in area where my college is I can't dream of anything to eat, the other moment, I was again in computer. I looked back at watch, its 2:10 am, time flies. I realize this. But I wonder I didn't feel sleepy at all. Its 2:10 am in morning, its strange. At 7:30 am in morning Guard sahab of computer lab came. He looked at me, asked me why I've came so early. I said I was here from yesterday morning.

Looking at myself, sitting in classroom, I am the most stupid person I think, instead of looking at what she is teaching I am writing this thing, who can be a stupid than me. Things are not normal that's for sure, heating up. I am learning , as much I try to keep myself away from things or situations as much I find myself indulged in them simply unintentionally. And I find that older people behave more like a child. I can simply visualize this these days. The situation I was in for last 11 days , I never want to be in. In those 11 days I had food for 4 times, walked 30 miles, had almost 20 litres of cold-drinks or juice, watched two movies in theatre, attended 24 long lectures from terrible teachers, didn't listen a single ghazal of any sort, didn't checked my mail for one week, I was fined 1000 bucks by HOD for not being in uniform, I was awake for 48 hours continuously, had bath 7 times.

Even though we have man-woman ratio in Rajasthan very unbalanced, we too love girl child like any other place in India. Here in Rajasthan, we have a different structure of families. We have huge families, living all together, living all near each other, almost every relative lives in same village. Child in such a family gets love from so many people, exactly what a child want. And many times it happens that child get attached to some other person even more than her parents. This is a very unique thing, and this is the beauty of Rajasthan. And there is one very different thing which happens, since the families are really huge, when child grows up, she sees her cousins calling her parents as 'kaka' , 'kaki' words used for uncle aunt, the child too calls her mummy papa as 'kaki' and 'kaka'. And this happens everywhere here. There is one such a little girl 'Sangeeta' almost 5 year old, who loves her chacha more than her parents. And Chacha also loves

Two poems I wrote a couple of years ago, when I was preparing for IIT JEE, and things were really tough all around. I wrote this poem two days before Diwali, I don't know why I wrote this , but after writing this i realize that Diwali here resembles hope for life, light and happiness. दिवाली तू लेकर आ,फिर जीने की चाह रोक मुझे अनजाने पथ से, सारा जीवन तुझ पर निर्भर मृत्यु पथ पर तू एक सुंदर बाधा, फिर एक चाह बनी है शायद चिंगारी कोई दिखी है शायद, शायद मुझे रोक सके तू शायद मुझे रोप सके तू, मैं एक टूटी शाख लगाये हुए हूँ तुझसे आश, मेरे मन की ज्वाला दिवाली समेट सके तू आज सिर पर लिए एक बोझा जा रहा हूँ दिवाली तू रोक सके मुझे अनजाने पथ से सारा जीवन तुझ पर निर्भर मृत्यु पथ पर तू एक सुंदर बाधा। जीवन के इस पड़ाव पर हूँ शायद मैं नितांत अकेला चाह रहा हूँ तेरा साथ, चाह रहा मैं उस अनजान की यात्रा दे सके तू मेरा साथ, जब था मैं एक शोला, लोगों ने मुझे सराहा जब आज मैं शीतल हुआ, लोगों ने मुझे दुत्कारा चाह रहा एक रोशनी, चाह रहा मैं तेरा साथ, दीवाली तू लेकर आ फिर जीने की चाह दिन गुजरे माह बीते बदला जीवन का

When i was younger i feared of dark, but suddenly i didn't. And now it happens that many a times i love to be in dark, away of all the thoughts, all the human beings and anything else. And i am in a very strange things these days, I don't know what it is, i am in a fear of failure, and at home this fear grows at an accelerated pace. At home I don't know if i could ever do anything but thinking of failure. And I am into a depression these days, i made a something, which i thought is quite good but on that i got few bad comments and i had done nothing from that day, not even my project for which i invested three months to get approved! I have no regret for that, it's good that somebody dislikes it that strongly. Don't want to talk about that any more, but the fear of failure. I am into that all these times. Thats like a nightmare! And i don't know if it is related to this or what. I am having a series of dreams, that has really shocked me, the first dream was that

Among uncertainty and unknown dangers to me I continue to work, working because I think I want something, though I really don't know what I want. For me life came in different phases, as I recalled I can divide it in three phases and I am obviously in the third phase of my life. And actually the third phase is just a product of the earlier two phases, everything I am into is related to something to my previous phases be it any good thing or bad thing. I am certainly visualizing things more clearly than ever before. At my age I know many people have done wonders and really I am late, but as I know things has changed certainly after the second stage. Sometimes I think I am sick of doing things my way, here is a list of things that I do exactly opposite to what others may do. I love old songs, Ghazals and Sufi Qawallis contrast of what people at my stage may listen. I love to wake up early in the morning when every body in hostel is into dreams I love to go up stairs, I love going col

I have a little cousin almost 18 years younger than me. I am at home these days, so I am spending more time around him, yesterday was his first day of school, I was sleeping when in morning he came to my place, wearing his brand new blue colored school uniform which he was showcasing from last one week, wearing his school bag at his back, black shoes of course brand new, he was extra excited on his first day of school, seeing him I flied back to flash back I recalled my first day at school, I was crying all the time, I was sitting on papa's shoulders crying all time, papa was trying to convince that I will have a great time, I am still wondering what made me enter the bus but just after a few minutes of entering I realized that I had made a huge mistake by entering this thing which looked to me as if I am in some other planet with aliens all over wearing the same thing which I am wearing and making noise like I do so I decided to use my 'Brahmasthra' and in a few minutes I

The only thing that troubles me these days is the situation that just carve in no time! Sometimes I think I will not do such thing once more, but I happen to practice the same thing more often. I hate myself for that! And after that I feel guilty again I know for no reasons and then after some time I get normal! The problem is that all these things distract me from what I was into and it then take me a long time to again get into that frame of mind! And the cycle repeats again and again! I decide not to do something than situation become such that I have to do that, then I feel guilty and then get normal! And so on! My whole life revolves in this cycle! And I am here to write something that made me feel very low. I am wondering if I could ever write something happy I always write something very much sad, isn't it so, I guess it is so, I was traveling in bus from home to Bikaner, yesterday I was wondering if I could get a good company, you know what i mean by good company ;) the wa

Happy! Are you happy? Hey I am confused more than happy? Why I am confused? I was thinking about my future, I know its worthless to think much about future but I want to decide about my future! I am at home for holidays and as usual I am doing nothing! This is a thing I hate! To be at home and doing nothing! But I can't help that for no reason. I was talking with my mummy papa about my future, and as they think about my future is that I may get a job of 20-30 thousand bucks or may 40-50 thousand at most! Is that true? Mummy asked me! I said no comments on that, and papa was telling about our businesses and all that! So getting a job of 20-30 thousand bucks and that also some thousand miles away from home, working almost 20+ hrs like bulls in any software company! Why? Situation is like this? Mummy asked me, just for fun , if I could earn more than what my papa have? I couldn't answer that! So I was all busy searching for this question and happened to switch on television and a

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I wonder if we can measure emotions with some unit, like I am 2 kg happy or 1 kg sad,or 1 liter sad! i always use it! and today i am 2 kg happy! It has become our tendency to compare things, like 1 kg is equivalent to the mass of platinum cylinder kept in some place under the observation of a international organization so the thing is that everything is relative, since i am about to set a unit for happiness , i too need to set some standard from which we will compare our happiness, lets take some person as standard, can it be Warren Buffet, after all he is the world's richest person, we can put him as standard, but then there is a problem, he will not be the richest person all the time, so he will not be the happiest person all the time, so can it be Shahrukh khan! he is the king khan, billions of people love him, surely he is the happiest person, but i am sure he will not the happiest person all the time, so he also can't be the standard! so what can be the standard for unit o

Today I happen to read my past diaries which i wrote before my college life and i find that i have not written much about my college days. So this is going to be the starting point for that, so the situation is that i am in second year of my four year engineering course, its a great feeling to see yourself doing something you always wanted, life is totally different from earlier, these days i am thinking about world :-) really I want to change something in this world or to do something very much visible :O oh! Being a little bit ambitious ya this is the change Oh! I am a little bit open now, can express myself more easily, now thats really a huge advancement i still remember myself and can see that it is a nice change. One more thing someone came in my life, :-) oh! Its a joke, actually i am trying to get anybody in my life! ;) oh i am really loving these smileys oh! One more thing i am now thinking about future ha! Ha! Ha! Ya i am serious, i am hoping to do something for my future oh

Before I start writing I want to describe situation around me, I am peeling off first layer, so the situation can be like this, exams are over, and we are relaxed. Its something little deeper now let's peel off another layer, then its me, I am writing about situation around me, and I recalled a phrase, someone said, “group creativity” at that time I controlled myself but not this time, I can't, so I want to laugh, ha ha ha I can't imagine of something like group creativity, OK leave this for now! Today I am here to talk on very unusual topic for me, a very common issue for many, and it may look like I am wasting time by writing on this topic, the relationships. Many time I think about it! Looking all around people talk a lot about it. I thought about an intimate relationship, but truly I have some virtual relationships and when I think about them I find that they are very much real than these relationships people are talking about all the time. I have made a definition of

the only thing i can do with this limited alloted time is write a post :) i can surely do this, and no regrets at all! this is life! i am busy in not getting busy! so the situation is like i am busy for nothing! things not going the way i wanted, but thats life! nothing goes the way we want, and thats the fun of being life, other wise it would have been machines, programs isn't it? yup so no regrets for this! i will cop up soon and what if i don't ? nothing! i remember one phrase we used to utter "But the life goes on and on" and i am practicing that! i wonder where has all my friends gone , none of them is online! not a single i think its too early for them in vacation ;) but i am missing them all, please if you are reading this come online!! reasons are many, just many, i have lots of things to write down, but i am afraid i don't have enough time to write them all ;) may be someday i will! during these summer i have learned one thing that be prepared, i mean pl

very strange for me to write about economy, government, and most specifically the inflation, but i am about to write on all these, the news channels are shouting all the time that the inflation rate is at all time high from last 13 years, and prices are rising up, making the life of common man miserable! and i am a common man, right? so according to them i am living in a misery! help me, save me! i am confused over that! does that affect us, this much! i am not convinced by that. surely the prices are rising, but the panic among the common man is being created by news channel thats for sure, before 13 years the inflation was same as today! as they say, so didn't we life that up, so do we live this situation who need to worry about that! the news channels they are worrying about this the most! the way they are describing the situation is making the situation even more worst! what the hell common man had to do with inflation, what he knows is that they have to pay more for the vegeta

holidays, vacation time, yes it is so, but not as fascinating as they were earlier, really i think holidays are no more we want, why do we want holidays, just to spoil one month? i don't want that! but i am a victim of system, i have to have holidays! unconditionally!! so i am again at home! killing time! and the most frustrating thing is that i don't have an internet connection here at home!! so not doing much! can't be online and can't really help it! trying hard to get a broadband connection at home! but looks like it may take few more weeks so i am not getting internet this summer, i am sitting in a cyber cafe right now, may be a few more minutes! this is a thing i want to change! and for my summer of code project, its really crawling! though i have made a little advancement, but still not as much as it should be, but one good thing is that i am finished up with sakshama website! and i am totally satisfied with it and with my effort! i am proud of my sakshama websit

the day seem to risen very beautifully today, it was raining all night yesterday, great weather, i am in love to it, cool air, great! i wish it could remain like this everyday, but then i think again we will not find its importance, so its better we enjoy it today, but alas exams time! can't really enjoy the cool weather hoping to have a good paper so that the weather become more beautiful! there are so many reasons for being happy today, its a great day today really! i had a good paper, a good weather, i got gift from joomla! and i am happy that i am happy, so many reasons to be happy, one more reason to be happy, i have a tough exam a day after tomorrow, so may be i will be not happy after that, so i think that its better to be happy who knows i may not chance to get happy so being happy is what i am required!

ignorance makes us curious, thats true; and when experienced that I now believe it. I don't know why I do things for which i regret later, may be because it gives me momently pleasure, and makes me feel good! i am examining myself very closely these days and found that one thing i need to change in myself is the way i handle myself, really i handle my self as worlds most useless guy. this is me! the need of the hour is to believe in myself! and thats what i am trying to learning! one thing is troubling me all the time that why do we try to disguise from ourself while we know everything about ourself then why pretending to be unaware of the cause of ourself being in the situation! and why do we try to do another thing to cover previous thing and it thus lead us to situation where we find ourself hiding over millions of covers. One more thing i was thinking about is even after 21 years i don't know myself thats simply disgusting! gosh! i don't know myself , i don't know w

I have been trying from a long time to active BSNL GPRS in my motorola V3i , and for that I sent messages to BSNL many times, each time i got settings messages and at the 4th message it shows error, thus i couldn't activate GPRS in BSNL, V3i , and after lots of googling and making various combinations of settings i have finally activated BSNL GPRS in my V3i and I thought it would be great to share this piece information with any body in need so, here is the process of activating gprs in v3i using bsnl connection, steps: 1. go to WEB access in your V3i phone 2. go to web sessions 3. choose any session you are not using may it be IDEA MMS 4. press center button, select edit 5.here are the settings you need to change to get gprs activate in your phone; Name : BSNL Homepage: www.bsnl.co.in Service type 1: HTTP Proxy1:10.132.194.196 port1:8080 DNS1:000.000.000.000 DNS2:000.000.000.000 TimeOUT: 15 minutes GPRS APN: gprsnorth.cellone.in and leave any other setting blank or intact press d

time is time, it changes so quickly and along with it, it changes so many things that i am wondering i was quite different person from what i was a few days ago, i am today in a mood to explore things around me in a very different way, may be very much indirect way, today while sitting in my hostel room, i am thinking about future that how it will be, i recalled one thing my nanaji says that even if you can't do several things you want to do right now, but don't give up thinking about that, and when you keep thinking about something to happen it really happens may be a little bit late than you wanted, but the time is right when it happens, so keep thinking! this is what i am doing, many people think that i am not affected my surroundings but the fact is that i am affected by surroundings as no body else, i am attached to few people very much, i keep thinking about them all the time, may be they don't realize this but i am this, i am that, i am much more than what you think

so finally i have cleared 3rd semester of my engineering, its a great feeling that i have done it. I can't write much about that this time, but just that now the 3rd semester chapter is closed, its now time to look forward for the next semester. This is special one as its the first of the semesters i have cleared and now i am into becoming an engineer, i have many mixed feelings for this. अब अगर तुम न आए तो दिल टूटेगा, दिल के अरमां बिखरेंगे, तमन्ना फिर मचलेगी आना ही होगा तुमको, की अब अगर तुम न आए तो दिल टूटेगा! या अल्लाह यह क्या माजरा है की उनकी नज़र वो कर कर देती है दिल का हाल की रोते भी है और आंसूं भी नहीं आते, कहते भी हैं पर जबां से लफ्ज़ नही निकलते हमने तो सुना था की निगाहों की जुबां सुनाती है महबूब का हाल पर यहाँ तो निगाहें मिलती हैं और मिलते ही झुक जाती हैं! या खुदा ये क्या माजरा है! की आना ही होगा तुमको, अब अगर तुम न आए तो दिल टूटेगा! वो पूछते हैं हमसे की तुम कौन हो, कोई बताओ उन्हें कत्ल करने के

We have been talking lot about girls these days, it looks like i am going to write down about them here also. it is very unusual for me to write about girls, but its i think the right time to write about that, as lots of things happening outside that is making me more and more curious about girls :) its one of my friend and me who were talking about true love today, and his opinion was that " true love is one in which one only think about the other" his point was even if one has to ruin his life for that! I may have agreed to the point , I was arguing that it is true only when you think like that even if you were "Shah rukh Khan" or "Sachin Tendulkar" and only when i could have believed that, but when you don't have anything to loose but nothing, these words are useless! My point is that one who has something to sacrifice should talk about it, others just making us!! so we were talking about love, girl, sacrifice and all that heavy stuff! things that

Looks like there is always something good lies out of bad! After a very disappointing GSoC result, I got a good news from it, I talked with Samuel @ Joomla! and he says I am in for Google Swag and will be working as unfunded Google Summer of Code student! now thats really cool, I can't expect more than that this time, So finally I can write that its like dream come true, I had thought of writing a great post if I get selected in GSoC , but since I couldn't make it, I still have reason to write here, extremely happy ! Looks like I have got reward for all the work i did and similar to what happened at Techkriti, IIT Kanpur, in that also I worked hard to get in MyFox but at the end got prize in IOHC, that experience has really changed my life! I learn making firefox addon during that, eventually couldn't submit a very good addon, but the far result is this, that I was being able to propose a great idea for GSoC all because of that, I really want to thank organizer of techkrit

here i am, for the first time talking about my dreams, i have been looking at various things from quite a long time, for my first year of Engineering I get fascinated by entrepreneurship , and had made many business plans, I discussed them with my colleagues and they also reacted very encouraging regarding that, but every body is concerned with raising funds for my plans, I don't think that in this era where getting money on credit is not a very big task, why i am going to face any problem, I mean if you are confident about your plans, you can take risks, so I think that raising fund is not the task, but the task is to make myself ready to get the fund, i believe that many times it happens that opportunities come in our way, but we are not ready, so to avoid being in that situation I am trying to raise myself, making myself believe strongly in my ideas and myself, making a good team and start working on plans :) I have thought of many ideas, I dont want to start a business just to

Unable to Say, Don't worry Wait for an answer, An answer without question! there are so many things I want to try, I really want to try tough things. People around me may be more intelligent then me , but i don't care, my intelligence lies in my self, I know I can do things the my way! की ये हो न सका की हम ये कह न सके की ये जो दिल में उठा है हम लबों पे ला न सके आया न कभी ऐसा पल की हम ये कह पाएं की ये जो दिल में है की यह हो न सका ! looks like I am going to write down that i myself don't know, i mean what i am going to write down is unknown till now. Oh! I recalled a dream I had last night, I met a small girl, a cute little girl, very cute, very sweet, she had lost her home, i mean she was looking for her home, I asked her about her place, so that i can take her to there. But she says she don't know, she was smiling all the time, very cute, very happy I can f

I have also written what if i selected, its fun, a little humourous and a little bit ambitious, its me after all. Q. What are the advantages of getting selected for GSOC? Ans.There are many advantages of getting selected in google summer of code. The following is the list of few of them. 1. Life become beautiful as never before. 2. You become happy and feel like in the seventh heaven. 3. People around you start respecting you as never before. 4. You get a chance to tell any girl that how much you love her, and this time she will not refuse, for sure. :) 5. You become an open source contributor, which you always wished of. 6. People will listen to whatever you say. 7. Sakshama XO8 will be organized in way nobody can even dream of. 8. you become mad!

5: 00 pm may be it is very dangerous to write down here but i am writing it here because i have nothing else to do! my laptop is down and i am really feeling like betrayed before i start writing i want to describe situation around me, its festival time, Holi is approaching, so college looks like a picnic spot, no work and no fun! ya! i know all fun should be there but it is not like that, it was the situation as it looks from outside now i am peeling off first layer to get a deeper sense of situation, now the situation can be like this Exams are over, may be its just mid term but exams are exams so we are relived now, its the situation a little deeper, now let's peel off another skin then its me and i recalled a phrase someone said " group creativity" i controlled myself that time but this time i can't so i want to laugh ha! ha! ha! i really can't think of something like that, okay! leave it for now. sometimes i thought of a relationship, looking all around peopl

Summer of Code, Bring spring to my life, I am excited, life will change forever;If I get selected, Summer of Code! Code this summer, Code for life!

feeling like nothing, not getting what to do, I can't access myself. I am not getting what i am capable of doing and what not. for the situation of mine i want to write a song, a song just for me and my condition. jana hai google mein, jana hain mujhko yaaron google mein pata nahin infy ka bhi jana hai magar google mein rote rote, rote hi rahenge, par infy mein coolie nahin banenge jana hai mujhe google mein, yaaron mujhe jaana hai google mein, chalao koi chakkar yaaron, patao yaaron larry ko, ki jaana hai mujhko google mein itna bhi hum barbad nahin hain, ata bhale hi humein kuch khas nahin back bhale hi 2 ho par, year back to nahin hai yaaron, ki jaana hai yaaron mujhko google mein. deewane bane phirte hain hum, din bhar ghuma karte hain hum object hain hum, class awara ke, function hamare hain sabse nirale pointers hain hum beauty ke, structure hain hum fundon ke, rote rote, rote hi rahenge, par infy mein coolie nahin banenge yaaron jana hai mujhe google mein, yaaron jaana ha

these days i am all thinking about time, time and time infact time is the thing that is in my mind all the time. i am now strongly believeing in the importance of time and infact i am using a phrase these days "its the time that is valuable not the money" this line is also applicable to all other things i believe. i don't know why i am thinking about time all the time, ya i remember one dream i had a few months ago. and it was related to time. the dream was like I was standing with one of my lecturer in college and in fact it was HOD of electrical department, and to my wonder i have never happened to talk with him ya for once i met him, but in the dream i was standing with him along with some other persons whom i don't remember any more and he gave me an old wrist watch and said me that it is very important! and the watch was showing 2:00 o'clock that's it i tried to relate this dream with the happenings in my life and it i find that i am really running short

here i am again writing without any cause, but still there are so many causes to write down. its my time of mixed emotions mixed feelings and yet another day coming and going time changes quickly then me its for sure but i am also running very fast, this is me very tough to understand, me myself can't understand me than how any body else can understand it. this is me! this is me! a piece of human kind with just another human kind of emotions! God! i am also a silly human! writing without thinking and just keep writing i am writing because i want to write and i am writing because i want to read after writing this that whats happening inside my mind, its my problem i think i can write better than speak and even better than what i try to frame before writing. now i am getting stable after writing a para without any sense i can now write something normal human can understand. this and the previous week was full of adventure and moreover full of happy endings, I must write down few line

Life of an Ecbiian: I am an ecbiian, I want to describe life of an Ecbiian. Plight of being an Ecbiian. It’s I think is the true thing to write. I am thinking about parallel life. It is just too far from being. Wasting time, wasting time, just wasting time, it’s ridiculous. I wish I could change this. Din bhar kaam nahin aaram, mil jaye aisi tarqeeb, mil jaaye khushi mit jaaye har ghum. Lets try to make myself busy. I have got feb, march, april. I wanted to prove my self. I wanted to go to some IITs in techfest. I tried to make an add on for firefox. It is a long story. I’ll tell you in short. The last date was 18th Jan, and I started to work on it on 10th Jan, once I got involved in it, I started loving working on it. Then came the twist, on 16th Jan, in six days I really learnt a lot about XUL, XML and JavaScript, but still I was not comfortable with DOM parsing and API so I was so frustrated that I couldn’t know what to do. Also, one thing I forgot to share with you was, I worke